So, I had bitched and moaned at the opening of this blog, that I wanted to go HOME! I will miss my beau more than anything...he means the world to me. He has changed my panic, worry, and homesickness..it's something a little less dramatic of a situation. He is getting ready to head out of state for awhile for training for a possible promotion. It's worth it. I can't stay here alone...and shitty things are happening in hell "work". The turnover is so damn high, the manager is gone, and it's stressful. Emotionally draining. As well, there are a lot of things to take care of back in Tampa. I'm not giving the exact departure date. Shit! I don't know myself yet. I do know less than 15 days but more than 5.
When I go home, I will be living in a different place than I left. I will be attempting to find a full time job asap, and I will be going back to what I love and enjoy...being a gym rat and nutrition junkie. Being around family helps me absorb the shock of homesickness...who would think? LoL
There are hopes that if the beau takes the promotion, he could transfer to FL. We shall see. We never know which direction our path will take until the next day unfolds. As I write all this, I am a bit teary eyed. I made a good friend in one girl here...someone I will miss. I also am remembering the loss of my grandfather, who passed away 4yrs ago today. Everyday I wear his thumbprint on my necklace..he was the first and only family member I have ever lost. What is loss? Right now I feel LOST..being away from home. Granted, it will not be easy returning. I only have one month of bill money saved up. No job lined up...and need to re-do my resume pronto. I will have some work stuff in the modeling world lined up by March once I finish doing what I need to do to get back to the old me...the me I was before everything went down hill.....4-5 years ago.
So in essence....this is just a swift update...to let you know....I am homeward bound...yea...not the movie. Maybe, just the short novel :-)
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